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16th August 2004, 11.35PM
Hallelujah! The church anniversary is finally over! Phew, sang for 7
services! Hmm.. Must really say that this is a memorable experience. I cried,
laugh and had lots of fun during the 3 days of serving and 2 days of practice.
Anyway, I'm going to give an account of what happened.
Last Saturday, I received an sms asking if I can sing for all the seven
services for the church anniversary. Then, I attended the Sunday practice by
Sister Elle. Man, I must say I was really shocked by her vocal clout! She's
really anointed and astonishing! Then, I was made to sing the tenor part for the
parade of ministry song. Practice ended at around 9pm and before I leave for
home, I was told to be back for another practice the coming Wednesday.
So, the days dawdled past very fast and very soon it was Wednesday. I went
for practice on Wednesday at the auditorium and was flabbergasted to find out
that I was initially not on duty for the church anniversary week. The choir IC
also said that everything was a communication breakdown. As a result, I was
stuck there, in front of the other choir members frantically trying to search
for my name in the duty list. However, the choir IC still allowed me to attend
the practice after confirming with me singing for all the services. Then, practice
just went on and on and on with Pastor Sun and the musician till 2am until I've
decided it was too late. Then, I decided to retire for the day because of school
tomorrow.
However, because it's after mid- night; all the public transport has ceased
service already. I therefore decided to walk home- from Boon Lay to Bukit
Panjang! But praise God, He's so faithful. When I chose to go for the rehearsal
and stayed on, He provided me with a taxi home- absolutely free! Then, Thursday
was quite a tiring day for me, but I did not fell asleep during the classes. In
fact, I manage learn a lot of things from the lessons!
I did not attend practice in church on Thursday. I went for Cell Group and
was pleasantly blessed by the word of encouragement by Brother Marvin. Finally,
Friday disembarked. Initially, I had got no desire to go down and sing for the
service because I had always had this voice chanting by my ears telling me that
I'm just an extra; allowed to serve because my choir IC took pity on me. True
enough, I also feel that the people made to sing for this week seemed to be more
spiritually mature, more attractive, vocally more sturdy. I feel insignificant
and puny. I also heard things like," Since nobody called to tell you anything
about the venue and meeting time, you can forget going," and lines like
"You'll be laughed at.." Despite this, I still went down to serve and
I kept meditating on what Pastor Zhuang has told me. That's Phil 4:8. In the
end, I managed to serve on Friday- both Praise and Worship and parade of
ministry. Then, when I returned home, I prayed again to God to help me feel part
of the choir ministry and almost immediately, an unknown number messaged and
informed me about the time, venue and wear for Saturday's 3 services. I felt so
blessed.
I went to serve on Saturday too! And, this time round, the choir people;
mostly the senior ones approached and talked to me. They cracked jokes and
talked a lot. I think they're very friendly and of a sudden, I realize, hey;
they don't bite! Anyway, I think I was also unwittedly recruited into their
idiot club- a club that cracks lame jokes; a club where jokes turn out not funny
and a club to reach out to lame people. HAHA.. think I'm getting lamer (.. I was
all long lame? :X) Then, the intensity of our friendship got stronger by Sunday.
(Well, imagine having to face the same people for 3 consecutive, whole day..)
One particular reason I like to be around with them is because they talk a lot
and I don't have to talk much. All I have to do is to just laugh at their jokes.
Also, I think they're not just bunch of funny people; but quite spiritual as
well. While waiting for our turn to perform for the parade of ministry, the
whole choir and to sludge and wait in the blistering staircase. And, we would
normally try to amuse ourselves with jokes; and sometimes asking bible questions
like "What is the ark of covenant for?" and making statements like
"God gave Jacob a broken rip so that he will be dependant on Him for the
rest of his life" Finally, one particular thing I like doing while waiting
in the stairs would be singing praise and worship. Because the guitar ministry
is straight after our performance, they would be queuing up behind us. Then, to
kill time; they would play some praise and worship song. Subsequently, one, then
all the choir would be worshipping God in the staircase.
Conclusively, the whole event ended off very soon and successful. Although
I'm really tired physically, I felt really blessed by God and His people. I know
God is going to use this experience to do something great in the future. I'm now
standing before His altar, anticipating about more greater revelations from Him!
See Ya! God bless!
9th August 2004, 11.38 PM
I have recently taken an online quiz and it funnily said that I have a
whopping sex drive of 92%! So, that makes me a lecherous werewolf? Ya, so make
sure everyone reading this blog out that be extremely aware of me. I have ultra
high sex drive. HAHA..
Talking about these explicit issues, I have got various hilarious, candid measures
to share. Firstly, when I was in Bugis Junction toilet yesterday washing my hand
(Was meeting my Cell members for dinner), a hunky gay came up to the washing
basin beside me and stared right into my eyes. Then signaled me into the
cubical!? Well, I was feeling very offended and disgusted, naturally.
Nevertheless, I washed my hands and ran the freak out of that revolting
lavatory. yucks!
Then, just a few moments ago, I presume a chirpy gay couple came and dine in
the restaurant I'm working in. Then, after their meal, me and my colleagues went
and cleaned up the mess at the table they're seating. After a wholesome clearing
up however, one of the partner returned, looking perturbed. Then, he asked me if
I had seen a plastic box on the table. I said no. But my colleague seemed to
have remember throwing it away and tried to retrieve the box from the dustbin.
Subsequently, I don't know what happened. But I somewhat think the box he's
referring to is actually a box of condom. eeeks.. x2!
I don't know where this world is going. Gay actions are becoming more and
more standoffish and prominent. Well, I don't hate gays, but I really hate their
gay actions. It's not only not acceptable by the bible, but also poses as a
threat of further annihilation of man-kind. bleah~ I don't know what I'm
typing..
8th August 2004, 10.22 PM
I think I am a little bit proud recently because I am doing well spiritually,
emotionally and physically. Anyway, I think I should really tone down a little
bit. In terms of my volume. I also feel that perhaps recently, I have been
sharing too much about myself and life to the extent that I am a little
boastful. I guess I must also work in the area. Probably, I'll try to share less
about myself, and pray more to God. Then, lend my ears always to people who need
them. I guess I'll be a better person that way. I don't know..
Went for service today and was very impacted with the Word. Anyway, I served
today (again..). I think the people must have been very bored with my same old
face already.. HAHA But anyway, I think I really gave my best to praise and
worship. I was also very blessed during the worship session. Even though I know
I can't sing as well as Sister Annabel and Brother Po or look the most handsome
on stage, I'm determined to be the most excited person praising God on stage.
Also, I'm determined to be the person to worship Him in Spirit and truth.
Then, I spent a wholesome $15.00 on taxi fare to and fro home. Well, it
really did burnt a large hole in my wallet and I must say that my pay for the
previous month has been totally used up. I think I must really be wise with my finances.
Then again, I'll been repeating this line throughout my whole diary here. Who is
willing to teach me the art of saving and give me the wisdom to save up. I don't
know.
Again, I think you've pretty thought that this is another negative entry
isn't it? HAHA.. Just some nice news to share then. Firstly, I brought my
youngest brother to church again; and well.. This is his third time. Secondly, I
think the friend I have invited is bringing more of his friends along for my
church anniversary! Finally, please cover me in your prayer. Need breakthrough
with studies! Thank you. God blesses!
7th August 2004, 11.28 PM
Just came back home after a day of interesting day at work. I have invited 2
of my colleagues over for my church's 15th anniversary today and I think they're
quite positive with their response. However, after looking at their working
schedule for next week, I think I'm keeping my fingers crossed.
Anyway, celebrated National Day in school yesterday. And frankly, I was bored
to tears. Well, you would have imagined wearing the obtuse, turtle color school
uniform and being made to sit and stand on the concrete ground by the student councilors.
Also, it would be even more encouraging if you could envisage the programs for
that day. Right from the start, we have our school's version of National Day
marching contingent comprises of a pathetic of the school so called elites,
marching in and out as though they're driving a gigantic lorry. Next, the two
MCs thrilled the entire audience with their spectacular dull hosting skills by
asking the mascots several humdrum questions, as though wanting the mascot to
come up with a GP essay on the spot. These are not all. I guessed the most extraordinary
agenda could be the sing along session with a really inspiring choir of 7 people
standing on the stage as though attending a funeral wake. Well, thank God this
ended early.
Actually, I had the option as to whether I wanted to contributed to make this
event a successful and interesting one via participating. But somewhat, I feel
it quite dumb having to go through the routine every National Day. I like
National Day, but not these infertile programs. Quite negative huh? I know, I'll
try to change.
After the event however, I went out to have a game of bowling with a friend
at OCC and I think I've completely forgotten how to bowl. Anyway, my standard
came back when we were transferred to another alley, beside some female
secondary school students. I think I'm quite interested to take up bowling..
Probably I'll practice at Bukit Panjang Plaza Super Bowl sometime soon.
Then I also heard from my primary school friend that one of my primary school
friend was down with a very serious ailment recently. I think most of my primary
schoolmates who have heard about this news was rather distraught. Hmm.. really
wish to meet all of them up and have a good chat. As to ZhenQuan: Don't give
up hope. We'll always be by your side to fight this fight with you. Friends are
not just a bunch of people who would only want to go out with you to have lunch
when you are well. Friends are people who are interested in you; even when
you're in your darkest moment.
1st August 2004, 12.05 AM
Summer's gone; autumn's back again. In a twinkle of my eyes, more than half a
year is already gone. I happened to look at my target setting card which I had
done in the beginning of the year and out of the 8 steers, I have already met 3
of them. Indeed, time waits no man. In just a flash and my 18th birthday is
already gone and I'm almost finishing my Pre-U education.
All of a sudden, I felt everyone and everything began to change. Everywhere
just seemed so vacillating. People becoming more and more opinionate and
has mutated to become back-stabbers and hemorrhage schemers; constantly giving
negative comments in hope of discouraging others who are succeeding. In school,
in workplace, and almost everywhere. But of cause, in amidst of the darkness,
there remains still loyal friends who are willing to lend their listening ears
for my woes. And for this, I want to say: Thank you for being my friends!
I had my practical exam this morning and I had pretty much screwed the whole dissertation,
and that is really awful. Frankly, I find the paper really painless but still, I
did not manage to complete it because I was having a diarrhea (I'm still having
it now..) and my pencil ran out of lead. So I guess I'm having my blues now
because of the apparent reason that something would surface itself whenever I
take any papers and as a result, causing me to fail the test badly. I think I'm
in some sort of bondage, or witchcraft, or was it psychological problem that I
always seemed to mess up my exams. But anyway, I'm now trying to find time to
study. I really want to do well in the exam, qualify for a good course in the university.
I do not want this mediocre life of earning $5.50 an hour and having to slog
like a bull.
Haha.. I know everything sounded quite negative as till this point of time.
Anyway, despite these struggles, I really want to thank God for giving me my
sane; otherwise, I would really have gotten really depressed because of the aggravating
circumstances and people. I want to thank God again that the burden that was
buried in me was sort of lifted up altogether throughout this week. Firstly, on
Wednesday, I went and met a really anointed person and I was really convicted by
his love for God and He taught me a lot of God's way. I just want to thank that
person here for making such a great effort for setting aside so much of his
hectic schedule just to speak and listen to me and teach me the Word of God.
Secondly, immediately after I met that person, I went for my YMCA bible class
and again I was convicted by the Word and again, on Thursday during Cell Group,
the Word was reinforce. It seemed as though God wants to really confirm me that
that's the Word for me. Thank you Jesus, I get it now. Finally, I want to thank
Jesus and the persons who have been praying continuously this week, I'm really
feeling very blessed and loved!
Well, just to share some revelation as to what I would do. When I encounter
anyone some time next week who laughs or tries to discourages others when they
make a slight gaffe, I think I'll step forward to unravel the fallacious truth.
And probably speak some sense into the person.. Just pray I'll get the message
across accurately and hopefully nobody would say that I'm just being bossy.
Anyway, I'm going to pray now and I think tomorrow is going to be phenomenal.
So, I'll just be going with an uncluttered heart and I know I'll be really
blessed financially, emotionally, evangelically, spiritually, physically,
academically and in every aspects of my life over next week and the week after
that and after that!
30th July 2004, 4:43 PM
I really hate filing. Anyway, spent much of my time today filing all
my year 2 documents because my GP, Maths and Chinese files are due today! But
anyway, I don't think anyone handed in any files today. So, I think I'm going to
wait till Monday.
Recently, I have been having this negative feeling in school all long while.
It seemed to me that something in the class is very wrong. To summarize, I think
my classmates are behaving more and more eccentric and antagonistic recently. I
don't know why. People are becoming more vocal with their credence and a
wrong answer being brought out during class tutorial would win the sarcasm of
most of the classmates. For me, I'll attribute it to exam stress? (Note:
Promotional examination is 10 weeks away from the time you're reading
this article; not 7. I know the class management committee wants to
encouraging people by shortening the time; but LIVE IN TRUTH!)
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